1. Memories are a tricky thing, Matthew thought now as he stared into the distance and music played around him.

    You would think they are fixed, frozen in time like carved stone, beautiful sculptures you can admire and marvel at, unmoving, lifeless, constant, but try and cast a different light on them, and they are… changed.

    Matthew had not looked for this, he had not wanted it. In fact, he had tried his very best not to even consider it, these words, what they meant, but they would not leave him alone, they had infiltrated his consciousness and they had changed his memories.

    They had cast a new light on them and they had now shifted, moved, turned into something different right before his eyes, something beautiful and tragic, because they were not the same, and she… Mary… she was not the same in them anymore.

    Once doubt had crept over the precincts of his mind he had been powerless to it.

    “Mary is still in love with you,” cousin Violet had said that night.

    Could she be right?

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    What I’m presenting you today started as a short missing moment written in a quiet night few months ago. Clearly, I got carried away :P

    In my defence, I’ve always been fascinated by Matthew’s thought process between episodes 2x07 and 2x08, and, more specifically, between the moment Violet pushes into his room and tells him that Mary still loves him, and the dance scene when suddenly everything seems to be so close to the surface, both Mary and Matthew panting with feelings so strong and yet so closely restrained. It all comes undone in that scene, and they dance and then kiss, even though they shouldn’t.

    But what led to that, emotionally speaking?

    (Source: patsan)

  2. Michelle Dockery as Mary Crawley in Series Five of Downton Abbey +

    (Source: elsiehughes, via dgd2001)

  3. snowball4:

    Downton Abbey Rewatch + 2x07

    denial.  but not very convincing…

    But she’s not denying it. She says of course outright, but then she adds that she would never admit of loving someone who preferred someone else, which is something that brings in pride—something Carlisle can rely on, and Mary knows that—but doesn’t actually deny of loving Matthew. 

    I also find Carlisle’s phrasing interesting. Are you still in love with him? I doubt Mary told him of their almost engagment, and yet, somehow, Carlisle knows.

    But then, I think everyone knew except for the two of them :P


  4. Mary Wonka


    Am I the only one who sees Mary in this picture:


    and thinks of this…


    I can’t be.

    Credit for the Downton trailer screencap goes to the thefoodofloveismusic.


  5. “I just don’t understand why you had to agree with this, that’s all.”

    “I could hardly say no when she was dropping hint after hint, and then she asked me right away. There was just no way I could say no.”

    He pauses, taking a deep breath.

    He looks at her, but she turns her face away, and Matthew sighs.

    “Look, I don’t know what’s the matter with you and Edith lately, but whatever it is, it’s getting ridiculous, you should settle things between you two.”

    Mary’s laugh is far from amused.

    “As if that’s ever going to happen.”

    Matthew frowns.

    It’s not like Mary and her middle sister are the best of friends, but things have been at least civil as long as he can remember, and they even seemed to be getting along rather smoothly until a few weeks ago.

    He doesn’t know what’s happened to change that, but it is pretty clear that something is up with his girlfriend lately, and he thinks now that maybe that has something to do with Edith.

    Still, it doesn’t explain why Mary seems so restless at nights or why she’s already up in the mornings when he wakes up, a fact that amazes him since he’s always the first to get up and he usually manages to take a quick shower and to have breakfast ready for the both of them before Mary even considers getting out of bed.  

    But he doesn’t want to pressure her, not when she’s under so much stress from work anyway, and so he takes a deep breath and moves to her.

    She is leaning against the kitchen counter, and he rests his hands on her hips.

    She still doesn’t look at him, and he sighs again.

    He leans in closer, kissing her cheek and caressing her sides.

    “You don’t have to come with me if you don’t want to. I promised and so I’ll go. Relax while I’m away, take a bath or watch a movie, I’ll be back in time for bed and then I’ll help you relax a little bit more.”

    He says this in a quiet, light tone, adding a cheeky grin at the end.

    She looks sideways at him and he notices her lips twitching at the corners.

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    (Source: patsan)


  6. Although I do think that the bobbed hair is actually a wig. I don’t know, they look… still and shorter than Michelle’s.

    I like it, but I also don’t? Mmmm, what do you think?

  7. thefoodofloveismusic:

    Mary looking fab on horseback. That’s so exciting!!!

    This might be the ONLY reason I’ll tune in :D

  8. (Source: downtonabbeyft)


  10. theladyandromeda said: 7 :)

    Hi :)

    7. Share a snippet from one of your favorite pieces of prose you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

    I had to take some moment to choose, and finally I decided for this one:

    June became July and Mary began thinking that she really liked it here, the ocean making the air spark with salt and freshness as she walked on the beach, Emmalyn and her sisters in tow and a couple of old maids acting like chaperons – really, as if she wasn’t a chaperon herself, a maiden cousin twice their age. Even so she missed Britain. She wasn’t exactly homesick, but part of her longed for home.

    She often dreamt of Matthew, and they weren’t the terrible nightmares she’d had for many months after Lavinia’s death, but there always was a gentle smile, and a teasing glint in bright blue eyes, and a strand of golden hair flopping onto his creased brow, and a glimpse of his warm and soft hands. When she woke up from these dreams she was always smiling and her good humour was infectious for the other occupants of the elegant sea house. If she felt up to it these days she would read some poems to her cousins, explaining the hardest passages to them when they asked. Afterwards the youngest, a dark haired child, with wide green eyes, would hug her at her waist and pray that cousin Mary would never leave them.

    One day she saw her grandmother looking at them through the window. She was smiling. For some reason Mary had a vision of children surrounding her, and a tall blond man by her side, and an old, clever lady smiling down at her in the exact same way.

    It’s part 8 of Eleven Steps, my first Downton Abbey fic. It’s one of my fave not because it is poetic or particularly ‘fancy’ in any way, but I do love the images it conveys, this Mary who had to go away from Downton to find herself again and who is slowly healing thanks to the distance, to the affection she finds in her American relatives, and to a steady and constant reminder of Matthew’s love, which is never pressuring or assuming, just there, for her, in a romantic and maybe a bit silly way.

    But then, I have a soft spot for this whole piece, a 5,000 fic written in the wee hours of the night and till dawn, and then edited later that same day. It does have a dreamy quality to it :)

    Thank you for the question!

    Ask me 40 Questions - for fic writers


  11. morwenandhercats said: Who are your favorite ships in Downton?



    *clears throat*

    I’m going to start right away with zero hesitation and say that my favorite is Matthew and Mary. And, yes, before anyone says anything, it is (I almost said “was” but then I caught myself becAUSE NO I REFUSE TO BELIEVE) the most primary relationship on the whole show, the one that everyone likes, yada yada - but I truly, honestly, wholeheartedly adore it for reasons far beyond it just being there and being cute. My reasoning is this - their relationship is probably the single most healthy on-screen romantic relationship I have ever seen.

    • They, above all, treat each other as equals. From the get-go, they match each other in wit and cleverness. Both develop a (begrudging, at first - and on Mary’s part, at least) respect for each other that starts somewhere around the vicinity of their second meeting. Rocky start aside, they always, always sincerely speak and think highly of each other, whether it be in the privacy of their own thoughts or out loud - I think both of them have actually said out loud something along the lines of “I don’t deserve you”, which is interesting. They admire and respect each other an incredible amount, and it’s done in such a natural, organic, simple way - none of this hero-worship/kissing-the-ground-you-walk-on sort of nonesense that novels seem to promote? Like, for example, it could very easily be said that from maybe the second meeting Matthew is very clearly head over heels in love, but he is never blind to Mary’s faults. He embraces them and chooses to admire and respect her despite them (same goes for Mary with Matthew, though it took a bit longer for her to come to the same conclusions)
    • They’ve each seen the other at their worst - before they were married. something that I would never ever change about this relationship is the way it grows and changes and becomes so deep and touching over the very long time that they know each other. If they had gotten married straight off the bat, when Matthew first proposed, it would have been very different, and, while they may have been reasonably happy, the dynamic, the intimate way they know each other, truly know each other, that is present by the time the season 2 CS rolls around just wouldn’t be there. A friend of mine once told me that you should never decide to marry someone unless you’ve seen them and accepted them at their utter worst, and I agree. They argue constantly, even get into full blown fights several times, before either comes to their senses and decides it’s high time to get hitched – that means they’ve seen each other in miserable emotional states, they’ve hurt each other just enough to show that they’re capable of hurt but little enough that it can be forgiven and accepted – just – okay, arguing in relationships is a healthy thing, I think, as long as it doesn’t get abusive (which it definitely doesn’t here). If a relationship is all happy go lucky and sunshine and daisies, neither party will ever see the other at their worst. And then when they do see them at their worst, it’ll be too late and things might collapse. So THAT’S IMPORTANT. And in this particular case we’re not just talking arguing – Mary’s seen Matthew in what is probably the most vulnerable state he can be, when he’s laying broken on the hospital bed. That scene where she tells him about losing his legs and he apologizes for “blubbing” gets me every single time because it’s so dreadfully emotionally (not physically, though there is that whole thing about Mary helping Sybil undress him but I digress) intimate and private and you can see Mary’s heart breaking even as she smiles at him and tells him it’s perfectly alright to blub. And the whole business with Pamuk and how Mary finally tells him and he doesn’t truly judge her for it (and this is a whole other conversation because Matthew Crawley is so bloody important but let’s not get ahead of ourselves) – that’s Mary practically baring her soul and dissolving in front of him and okay yes basically before I start rambling they’ve both seen each other at their worst, emotionally and physically, and that’s important.
    • They embrace each other’s flaws while still being prepared to challenge the other on it – like, they don’t just blindly accept, you know? They call each other out on their bullshit, point out hypocrisy or rudeness or hurtful behavior and try to get around it and fix it. I think part of what comes out of knowing each other for like, ten goddamn years before getting married is that they’re well-acquainted with each other’s screw-ups. Notice that the tipping point in their relationship is when Mary finally Reveals The Thing and trusts Matthew fully with her Sordid Past (or whatever) and he doesn’t judge her for it – he asks her why, of course, and is shocked and hurt and all manner of other things, and doesn’t take it lying down – but in the end, he sticks by her despite it, and comforts her, and assures her that she doesn’t need his forgiveness, etc – like, that part where he says “stop joking about this when I’m trying to understand” is So Important because it shows that he’s willing to work with her on figuring things out and not just have an overtly emotional reaction and walk away, and/or immediately say “no it’s fine there’s nothing wrong in what you did”. Am I making any sense? Likewise, Mary approaches Matthew’s own self-condemnation with a similar air – she allows for the fact that he screwed up, agrees that he did wrong and everything, and allows for him to push her away. But she still sticks by him. She still stands up for him, defends him to Richard, seeks out his company, etc etc. She is there for him and gently poking and prodding until he is ready to accept his mistakes in a less self-deprecating fashion and sksdkfasd yes okay I just really like these nerds.
    • THEY ARE ALSO THE VERY BEST OF FRIENDS AND THIS MAKES EVERYTHING SO MUCH SWEETER AND NATURAL AND OKAY like the single most important thing in a romantic relationship is the fact that you are best friends with the other person, because being best friends means that you trust each other, that you are mutually supportive and co-dependent, that you are protective of each other, that you love each other, that you enjoy spending time with each other and have fun talking – there are so many things this entails, anD I JUST. Like, their playful friendly banter is nothing compared to those scenes in which they so obviously get each other on this whole other level and are constantly looking out for each other in the smallest of ways – and how they’re both so fiercely loyal and protective of each other, how the first time in the whole show that Mary very nearly starts crying in public is when she gets angry and defensive on Matthew’s behalf, how she prays for his safe return in her room and supports him throughout his injury and doesn’t let anyone stop her; how Matthew, the moment he realizes that Mary’s relationship with Richard is less than ideal, immediately assures her that she doesn’t have to marry anybody and that she can live at Downton comfortably as long as he’s alive – and it’s not done with ulterior motives, not done with the idea that “ditch Richard and come with me”, it’s purely out of concern and friendship and protectiveness and like it just makes me so happy and like, when he says, all the way at the beginning of season two, how “I’m sure I’ll like him once I get to know him – if he’s good to you, that is. If he isn’t, well, he’ll have to go through me” Just. I just. bYE. AND THE WAY THEY JOKE AND TEASE EACH OTHER and how they make each other laugh so easily and how very comfortable they are standing next to each other and talking and aaaaaaashfalskhflsdf.
    • As I said before, co-dependency and mutual support. They help each other grow and are constantly encouraging each other to better his/herself. This is … unspeakably important.
    • Above all else, how they so freely and honestly love each other. How Matthew grins so hugely at Mary and how Mary’s face lights up when he says something to tease her, how they have those stupid innuendo-laced conversations and how Matthew shows up at her door then night before their wedding to apologize, how even when they’re both engaged to other people they’re still sincerely happy for each other because all that matters is the other’s happiness and yes okay the bottom line is that this is my favorite ship in the entire show AND I AM SO UNSPEAKABLY ANGRY THAT DAN STEVENS LEFT sorry Dan Stevens I’m sure you’re a lovely person BUT I HATE YOU 

    (I also enjoy Sybil and Tom because it wasn’t cliche at all when it could have very easily been and also they’re very cute)

    Agreed on all accounts (well, bar the DS hate, but that’s really not the point :P).

  12. 26 letters for 26 “words” forming the Mary&Matthew alphabet, each of them referring to a specific scene or line or somehow fitting for the two of them.

    The challenge? To create 26 short fics or 26 gifsets/graphics each inspired by one word. Choose whatever suits your fancy, you can even do both or alternate between graphic and written word (heck, you could even write a short post about what that words means for you in relation to MM. Don’t let a supposed lack of ‘skills’ stop you! We are all creative enough to think of something!).

    Ideally, the challenge could last 26 days, but your only goal is to complete it, no matter how long it takes, and starting whenever you like :)

    Official tag is #MMAlphabetChallenge.

    If you decide to take the challenge—and I dearly hope you will—remember that what’s really important here, is to have fun, so, above all else, ENJOY!

    (Source: patsan)

  13. The Crawley sisters by Life4ArtInLA @ Deviantart

    (Source: deviantart.com)

  14. dgd2001:


    Favorite Mary Crawley Outfits Season 1

    She does a lot with her arms, especially.  But my favorite is when she is walking up the hlll, frustratedly waving her arms as we see the back of her move forward (not pictured here).

    Michelle as Mary has a lot of little movements going on when she acts, usually revealing what she truly is feeling, even when her words (or even her face) say a different things: she tilts her head slightly or turns it a bit on one side, she raises her eyeabrows or presses her lips in a little pout that then breaks into a mischievous grin (that happens a lot in S3, in her and Matthew’s flirting), she waves her arms, moving them further from her body, she flexes her fingers when her hands are at her sides, almost fidgeting, from time to time.

    On the other end she never bites her lips, rarely shrugs, never presses her lips in a thin line.

    Personally, as a writer (shocking word, but still) these are gestures that I often put in my stories when writing of her: not only they give a clear image of the physicality of what is going one in the scene, but I think they also gave a true to the character image of her. I think gestures, as well as words, actions, are a good part of the work of characterization.

  15. August 1924, Downton Village

    “Shh, darling, it won’t be long now,” Mary whispered to her son as she held him on her lap.

    He rubbed his eyes with his hand and turned to her, hiding his face into her shoulder, a small, petulant sigh leaving his lips.

    He grabbed the lapel of her light coat and squeezed it between his fingers.

    “When can I play?” he asked in a small voice, looking up at her.

    “In a little while,” she said with a smile, caressing his cheek.

    He sighed, resting his head against her, and Mary pressed a kiss to his hair.

    On the stage, her father spoke briefly, and Mary pointed his figure to her son.

    “Doesn’t grandpa look fine in his uniform?” she asked quietly. She looked over at the Earl fondly as she spoke, but then her gaze lingered a little more appreciatively on the man standing next to him.

    Both of them had a grave expression on their face, and Mary pressed her lips together as she recalled the ashen shade of her husband’s face early that morning.

    “S’ppose,” George murmured, and then yawned, rubbing his eyes again.

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    Ten years after the break of war, Downton honours its fallen and Mary attends a special memorial with her son, while her husband stands beside the Earl of Gratham on stage. Based on BTS pics and videos (so possible SPOILERS). S5 AU.

    My thanks to darkblueyank, for her help in making my English a little better and for talks on how the mind of a three years old boy would work, to thefoodofloveismusic for her lovely cover (click for HD) and her incredible patience, and to thedowntonhistorian for some useful historical information.

    The characters of Downton Abbey, obviously, do not belong to me, but, boy, do I have fun playing with them :P


    (Source: patsan)